It's been a long time...I shouldn't have left you

Nothing much to say, but hi! Hope somebody has missed me. I'm still new to this blogging thing even though I "started" a while ago you see how infrequently I post, so I haven't found my voice yet. I love reading the blogs where the writers seem all cool and witty and make me want them as my new best friend. Anyway...I'll get there...hopefully. I've recently moved to a nice little quiet town in the south (more on that later...maybe) so perhaps I will be blogging a lot more now. Or not maybe, but hopefully because otherwise I will be probably be doing something destructive...because boredom seems to have that effect(affect) on me. So far I am thinking about getting the following things:









Most are detrimental to my health...all will be detrimental to my wallet. If I get the wii maybe I can avoid letting boredom drive me to do things I regret and just simulate a life with no regret i.e.




Then I can create someone who can do all those things for me! Knowing me this would actually be fun and keep me out of trouble. I think I just convinced myself to go buy this game today! Maybe I don't need to buy the wii and just buy the computer version....hmm

and of course i'm always thinking about these...




How come I can't be like those people who learn to do productive things when they're bored. I can't think of anything I want to try to teach myself to do, or at least nothing that I'll actually follow through with. I have recently fallen in love with HGTV my favorite show of all times is Bang For Your Buck. Can't wait to get my first house and some money! Maybe I'll learn how to put down flooring, especially since I hate what's in the kitchen and bathroom of my new apartment!

So as you can see my life is quite slow at the moment. Sometimes it's really frustrating, but I'm praying for patience and the ability to be content with myself for a while, and not concentrate on other people or things. I'm truly blessed in a lot of ways and just need to quiet all my plans for a while and enjoy the the fruits of all that I've worked so hard for to get to this point. Even though things don't always turn out the way you expect them, I have to keep believing that everything that has happened and is happening is all a part of my journey that will land me exactly where I want and need to be. More about that later, but the point of that all was patience I'm working on that virtue.

Another reason to love Snoop?

quick how many dark skinned women can you name under 30 that play lead roles on tv or in movies? now how many of them aren't overweight and don't play mammy, or glorified mammy roles? besides toni and mya in girlfriends. take Dr. Bailey on Grey's anatomy for example. how come she's only seen as a mother/care taker? nobody is ever trying to get in her scrubs. she has no love life. she exists only to nurture the interns and patients, and help them with their problems (meanwhile her own marraige and family is falling apart, if that's not a new age mammy i don't know what is, but hey at least she's a doctor, and it's realistic in the way they pass her up for promotions even though she holds the damn hospital together). my point is that she is not a romantic character. now the black men on the other hand are (married or otherwise). the chief had a long term affair with a white woman and destroyed his marraige in the process. burke the other[former] black male character had an intense romance with an asian character. none of the interns were black. no romantically desirable black female character anywhere to be found, and this show is written by a black woman. i have quite the personal vendetta against colorism within the black community and in the media. anybody who doesn't believe that this is still a problem can look to tv, movies, and hip hop [videos and lyrics] for a clear overview of what is also played out in everyday life. light skin and long hair makes you more beautiful. there's nothing more prized than a "red bone" with hair down to her ass (even if it's weave). if the girl looks mixed (you know with the "good hair") even better. how many song lyrics come to mind when you try to think of red bone references? now how many references for brown skinned sisters? yeah you'll be thinking on that one for a while. i could go on..but back to the point of this post...as if there weren't enough reasons to love Snoop:


"To the chocolate women, the dark-skinned women, I love ya'll. I got a chocolate daughter at home. I always tell her chocolate is the best thing in the world. Don't think that light skin is in, chocolate ain't never went nowhere. Black is beautiful. I love dark-skinned women. That's why my videos be having dark women in them. I always used to have light-skinned women. Look at it. Show them one of my videos."



ok maybe this is one of the old ones, but...and how fitting that the song is called beautiful? check out snoop and pharell's love interests. also the dark skinned women are far outnumbered, and is there anybody without long hair? oh wait...didn't he say "hair long and black and curly like a cuban?" nevermind i get it.

Maybe it was the chocolate daughter that pushed him to put dark skinned women in his videos. Who knows either way I'll take it. I hope more people take notice and step up. There are beautiful black women of all complexions. Our young black girls need all the confidence they can get. It's bad enough coming from the white community, we don't need it from our own community too.



ok this one is not much better, but i did peep like one dark skinned girl with a cute short hair cut. ah...Snoop you wouldn't be lying to us would you?

It's time that we (i think the problem is prevelent but not limited to the perception of women) believe and acknowledge that black really is beautiful. We want to see dark skinned, unambigously raced, natural hair having (or not), women who look like us portrayed as smart, successful, driven, caring, compassionate, strong (without having to be loud, agressive, and/or obnoxious), and beautiful and desirable. listen to Snoop people, we all know he's the definition of cool.